Silent Whispers - Revisited

You know what I miss the most? Those silent conversations. Those eyes and expression. Those feelings and moment. And now as I miss them,  they all seem like a fantasy. 

I have seen those who change over time. How the talkative becomes quieter and how the laughter grows in sadness. I have seen the socializing turning lonelier. The happier growing mellower. All for one matter. The smaller as it may seem. The larger than knowing it is. The easily influencing and capturing. The change may  be small yet so huge. It makes you helpless.

کتنی چپ چاپ سی ہوا ہے  جیسے کوئی وحشت بولتی  ہو 

They say people change with time. I disagree. Those who care will always care. Those who do not, will not ever. And it's heart breaking to see how people could become stone hearted. How nothing could effect to melt their heart.

Looking back to the words I wrote not some long time back, I wonder where did my words go? Now that I wonder if ever I'll get back to writing stuff again? Sometimes we shut down one part of us so that the other half could survive without pain. This shutting down helps to face the world with open mind closed heart only. The heart needs to doze off for unlimited time. That's what makes writing impossible.

The same summer four years ago  changed the dynamics of my life A name, your name which was so strange did not remain strange after that Although you were and still are a stranger  Your name is - not.

Such silence In this dimly darkened night Or is it inside of me Bearing this silence Such similiraties Between the two of us When we come We bring silence When we watch We remain silent When we break We end up in showers

And sometimes I feel I strongly feel that Death is peace Running after goals And achievements Pleasure which brings along pain Excitement which combines with fear Love which end up in parting There is sadness linked with happiness But death is disconnection Not only from this world But with all the pain, fear and partings Death is ultimate And ultimate is peace!

Deep down in my heart I know Nothing will ever be Same again between You and me

Some people arrive in our lives to bring smiles While a few others to wipe them away The interesting fact is We can not forget them both.

I did not believe it but gradually I'm learning to accept it as a fact. People look out for things and feelings which they don't find where they expect them to be. Such as I do. I look for dignity,  virtues,  values,  respect,  care,  feelings and love in a person to tag them as good human beings. And all of a sudden,  tonight I am realizing that they had been missing badly from my life for the last twelve years. And now if I appreciate a member of so called superior gender because he has strong tendency to care and love,  I do not blame myself. Because I miss it all around me. Because I yearn to be in a good humans company.

Some people think degrading and humiliating others is the way to prove their so called superiority. And in top of that they feel they are better than a lot of humans who disobey the Almighty. When on the other hand they do not know how to love their own family. When nothing comes on the top priority list but money. And what about virtues and values and love and feelings? Zero. Who cares about being a good human being anyway!