Silent Whispers - Revisited

یہ جو تم ! مجھ سے گریزاں ہو ! میری بات سنو ! ہم اسی چھوٹی سی دنیا کے ، کسی رستے پر  اتفاقا" ، کبھی بھولے سے ، کہیں مل جائیں ! کیا ہی اچھا ہو ! کہ ہم دوسرے لوگوں کی طرح  کچھ تکلف سے سہی ! ٹہر کہ کچھ بات کریں ! اور اس عرصہء اخلاق و مروت میں ، کبھی  ایک پل کے لئیے ، وہ ساعت نازک ، آ جاۓ ! ناخن لفظ ، کسی یاد کے زخموں کو چھوۓ ! ایک جھجھکتا ہوا جملہ ، کوئی دکھ دے جاۓ ! کون جانے گا ؟ کہ ہم دونوں پہ ، کیا بیتی ہے ؟  اس خامشی کے اندھیروں سے ، نکل آئیں ، چلو ! کسی سلگتے ہوۓ لہجے سے ، چراغاں کر لیں ! چن لیں ! پھولوں کی طرح ، ہم بھی ! متاع الفاظ  اپنے اجڑے ہوۓ دامن کو ، گلستاں کر لیں ! دولت درد ، بڑی چیز ہے ! اقرار کرو ! نعمت غم ، بڑی نعمت ہے ، یہ اظہار کرو ! لفظ ، پیماں بھی ! اقرار بھی ! اظہار بھی ہیں ! طاقت صبر ، اگر ہو ! تو یہ ، غم خوار بھی ہیں ! ہاتھ خالی ہوں ! تو یہ جنس گراں بار ، بھی ہیں ! پاس کوئی بھی نہ ہو ، پھر تو یہ ، دلدار بھی ہیں  یہ جو تم ! مجھ سے گریزاں ہو ! میری بات سنو ! یہ جو تم ! مجھ سے گریزاں ہو ! میری بات سنو ۔۔۔!!! ...

Some relationships exist on rules and regulations Similar to paper work and documents in government offices They enforce the participants (usually the one who is on the obeying side) to obey, follow, and do as directed. In return they sometime grant them a smile or a gentle tone. Which is something not coming easily. Feelings, care, love are unheard of. Sometimes it's more like a servant master relationship. Till the day you fulfill all demands, finish your required work on time, everything is smooth And the day something remains undone, you will be cursed. Sometimes these kind of relationships are akin to slavery. Where feelings don't exist relations die a silent death. And it happens so often that the pain of the loss really emerges and one needs to cry Cry not out of suffering but suffocation Crying not for the death of a relationship but at the waste of feelings and emotions Some people are made of stone They are so rock like that they may crush their partner...

At the end of the day The day which was tiresome And never ending When my back hits the bed My eyes as they flutter in An effort to remain open My mind drifts back to Where it should not!

Seems I never recover Seems those lacerations never heal. They leave marks which becomes  alive often. Seems there is persistent emptiness inside. It resonates Any effort to heal deepens the hole But only for two people who love me endlessly For no reason With all my faults My mother and my daughter If they weren't there I would have shattered to bits. Every day is Mothers day Every day is daughters day too.

And I'm hooked on this one yet again https://soundcloud.com/nomy-nasir/sets/yeh-dil-ko-huwa-kya-hai

You know you are in trouble when you can't figure out What's bothering you What's missing in you What is that you want really and What is it you want to run away from?

Its a disturbingly beautiful moonlit night I am out in search of my sleep

I know Cutting from atmosphere and the habitats in it is not the solution But there are times when we don't want to be with anyone No one I intend to shut myself down for a while May be it would help me understand what is going inside my head and heart

Reading was a late night pleasure In times where there were no you And none of your charming talks Reading it is again, though the charms Have lessened and the pleasure is none Yet it proves how faithful a book could be When compared to ever changing humans

We shall die One by one Bit by bit Sudden or slow Though we don't know But we shall be gone Never to return The world would be Either same or worse it wouldn't matter Except for a few A few who really Ever cared for you This world would go on Even without us The place will be replaced The space will be filled Except for those Who knew you through