Silent Whispers - Revisited

پچھلی شب کا چاند گیء رتوں کی روشنی سے  یوں بوجھل تھا جیسے یاد کی مہکی پروایء چھو کر اسے گزرتی ہو جیسے بادل بھیگے لمحوں کے رخ سے حجاب اٹھاتے ہوں   جیسے لہریں آنسو سمندر کی اسکے چرنوں میں سر جھکاتی ہوں جیسے کسی مندر میں وہ اکیلا دیوتا اور ہر منظر اس کی داسی ہو اور آس کے افقی ساحل پر قوس قزح  کچھ یادوں کی  اپنے رنگ پھیلاتی ہو    اور پھر  کسی روز وہ تنہا دیوتا    داسی کے چڑھاےء پھول سمیٹنے  خود نیچے اتر کر آیا ہو  کل رات میں نے دیکھا تھا پچھلی شب کا چاند گیء رتوں کی روشنی سے  کچھ بوجھل بوجھل تھا

“I miss the feeling that we understood one another, but I begin to think that was only my delusion all along.”  Think of it! We could have gone on longing for one another and pretending not to notice forever. This obsession with dignity can ruin your life if you let it. Have you ever noticed that when your mind is awakened or drawn to someone new, that person’s name suddenly pops up everywhere you go? My friend Sophie calls it coincidence, and Mr. Simpless, my parson friend, calls it Grace. He thinks that if one cares deeply about someone or something new one throws a kind of energy out into the world, and “fruitfulness” is drawn in.”     Mary Ann Shaffer,  The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society

Between Times when I felt you with each heart beat And when I lost track of your existence Was so impactful, it has Transformed me into another human Who was broken and needed mending Picking up bits and pieces of strength The strength which was needed for survival I restarted living, living without you A life where there was no you It was just me and my loneliness And  I lived and lived well, minus you Years passed as I look back now I survived somehow you were not essential for life, And then after years of forgetfulness there came, One night with a dream, a dream which felt more than real Where I saw you and felt you, next to me Your intense gaze and warmth of your skin Was enough to tell me, the intensity persists, The yearning survived through the dust of all these years You and I exist still, in the same time zone, And you still have that power to influence my existence  Even in a late night dream.