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No its not writer's block Its something else Just wondering why am I not writing much these days!

Monday, December 11, 2017

They don't leave you alone

They don't leave you alone,
Like words
Uttered in a deep voice, when
Resonating through your soul
Connects you to another

They don't leave you alone,
Like memories
Every way, each step
All the gossips and non sense
Each smile, every tear,
Seasons pass, days last
Yet they never dim, the memories

They don't leave you alone,
Like autumn
With all its vibrancy of colours
All those beautiful falling leaves
mourn their parting, and yet
Re-live in the hope, for
A green- reunion

They don't leave you alone,
Like December
Each year as it arrives
Rekindles the flames of remembrance
And grows stronger with
Every whiff of cold wind
Reaching to your core

They don't leave you alone,
Like shadows
follow your every move
Count your each step
Hold breath as you pass
Trace you like a map
Becomes a part of you
And led you to surrender.









Tuesday, December 5, 2017

How could it be?

In this chilled December night
in the hue of un ending flu
I woke up in the middle of a night
lay still, silent, not moving
only the breaths which were coming
with slight difficulty, became deep
It was a trans phase between dream and
reality, where I saw and I felt
how , I wonder, after so many years
I saw you crossing my path, on
a busy street, and held my left wrist, in
your right hand, asking me to stop.
It was stranger than strange , as I
years ago stopped even thinking about you
How could then, it be, after ages,
I heard your voice, sense your breath,  and
felt the warmth of your hands on mine.
How could it be?

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Denial

Did I ever tell you
It took me all my energies
extreme effort and will power
to scrape each profound word
you ever wrote on the wall of my being

Think I never had a chance to show you
how long it was when finally
I ran and ran for endless miles
to escape the following echoes
of your breath-taking voice

No I would never let you know
I had to nullify my existence
In order to forget, what it was
the self created fantasy world
where we were together, you and I
For years and years to come

And now in this protected hideout
Which I have created to seek refuge
your knocks once again to my door
are creating tremulous resonance
To which, I deny to flow







Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Running a mile

And I ran and ran
and kept on running
to stay farther from
your profound presence
unbeknownst of the fact
it was only taking me away
from my- own -self

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Overflown memories



Sometimes there is flooding of so many lost memories. The days which apparently passing by on a regular pace with no emotional interventions, suddenly seemed to be overwhelmed. full of emotional jolts. Only a minor event generates a triggering effect and the chain on emotional roller coaster rides begin.The tears which were being stopped by a bridge of silence , broke down all barriers and began flooding in.

That's what happened when I found you so near, once again.
and also farther than ever before.

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Changing life

It was not so easy to forget you
But time is such a healer
And then
Bit by bit
One by one
I started forgetting them
The small moments
That brought us closer
Life had grown into a lake
With constant flow of water
No rush, no fuss
No cheering, no missing
Until this night, when I
Saw you in my dream.

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Waverley Edinburgh

زرد اداسی کے موسم میں 
دھیمی دھیمی  لو میں جلتی 
ایڈنبرا  کی ایک رو پہلی شام 

ویورلے  کے کنارے 
قدیم  سیڑھیوں والے 
نارنجی عنابی  پتوں 
سے ڈھکے  ہوے 
اس یادگاری چوک میں بیٹھے 
میں ان بنچوں  میں سے 
کسی ایک بنچ پر بیٹھی 
وہ یادیں پڑھتی جاتی تھی 
جو کسی ہمیشہ کے لیے 
بچھڑ  جانے والے کی یاد میں 
وہاں نسب کی گئی تھیں 

میں نے  وہیں پر بیٹھے بیٹھے 
ہر اپنے کو یاد کیا 
کبھی جو میرے ساتھ تھے  اور 
اب آنکھوں سے بھی اوجھل ہیں 
دل کی دنیا میں ایک ایک کر کے 
کتنے  دیپ جل اٹھے تھے 
آنکھوں کی دہلیز  پر 
یاد کا اک اک ستارہ 
سانس تھامے ٹھہر گیا تھا 

چپکے سے خاموشی سے 
تمہارے نام کا ایک دیا 
اس بنچ کے اک کونے میں 
چھوڑ آئ ہوں 

شاید  کبھی ایسا بھی ہو 
ویویرلے  کے پاس سے تم  
کبھی جو گزرو 
سستانے کو اس بنچ پر بیٹھو 
اور بچھرے  لوگوں کی فہرست ٹٹولو 
میں شاید تب نہ رہوں پر 
وہ دیا رہ  جا ے گا 
زرد  اداسی کے موسم میں 
یاد کا در کھل  جاے گا 

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